Sometimes I have to ask,
Am I lying to myself?
Did he perceive it differently than I did?
Was the whole shifting-of-the-feet thing self-conciousness,
Or irritation?
Elation?
Or hate?
Does he like me as I am?
Or should I change?
I don't want to change.
I want him to accept me,
"crazy stories and all."
He's different from me.
I'm different from him.
Is that okay?
I'm so confused.
He seems to send me mixed signals,
and I ALWAYS overthink everything,
so I never really can process what his initial reaction is -- was --
and my brain twists it around and my friends edit what they say
so that it won't depress me.
Am I lying to myself?
I believe that he holds a certain interest in me.
But I never really know.
Should I continue to like him and then be broken hearted over the summer when I can't see him?
Or should I take that extra leap and find out what he thinks, directly from him, instead of trying to interpret body language?
I'll stop rambling now.
No one really cares, anyway.